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<Monday, August 30, 2010>

I finally got my shoes! I love!

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<Monday, August 23, 2010>

Lets just officially declare that we only meet once a week! Sad, but true. Anyway, caught Salt yesterday at Vivocity and the show is wicked yo! But don't really like the ending and the 'Mecca' part cause I am conservative like that. The movie end around break fast and we break fast with the $2 cheesy hotdog. Yummy! And ada orang tak puasa you know! K better keep my mouth shut cause I'll be adding my own dosa(s).

Then had dinner at Pizza Hut. Ordered so many but at last tak habis. So we tapau lor! LOL. And I didn't get my raya shoes cause Aldo's shoes did not interest me although theres a massive 70% discount sale! Guess have limited shoes and C&K do not have the ones that I like.

Now let me tempt you with the following indulging pictures!

And I am sooo soooo sooo excited!!!!!

Labels: date, food, makan

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<Sunday, August 22, 2010>

I don't know, I feel like I missed something in life. I never want to show the negative vibe in me on this blog but on the other hand I do not want to be all all honey and sugar and no taste of bitterness. Sure, everyone has gone through a dark period of their life and I am one of them although I am very much clueless why.

I admit, I talk less with people I barely know, and I don't strike up good conversations. To be honest, I don't even talk much with my cousins for they're all much much older than me or the rest are just kids and I am the only 'young adult' there. I am pretty jealous of Ewan who is so so so so friendly to everybody and all the makciks, I repeat, ALL, loves him. He can win any makciks' hearts regardless of their age. But for me, I am thankful that I have no problems getting along with his family.

I rarely smile too, and for that people perceive me as proud and arrogant girl. Sometimes I hate myself for being me. I am just so glad Ewan have been supporting me all this while, and most probably mentally drained handling my childish antics. Good friends are loved too, that's where they come in the picture. I do not have a best friend cause I do not believe in having one. You know, SOME girls are just so troublesome and I had my fair share of it.

Spending time at home makes me realise that one need to have a positive outlook in life. Happiness and love are the key. Since I am deprived of a man's love at home, I appreciate Ewan's love for me and of course, I love him deeply. This 3 years has taught me alot about love and I can't imagine what I will do without him.

Slowly, now I am trying to change for the better. For my future, for my kids. I do not want my kids to follow in my footsteps, insya'allah, or have a home like mine. I want to be positive and have a pure heart, and be nice and soft.

Labels: emotional

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<Saturday, August 21, 2010>

Earlier today I got a babysitting assignment at Raffles Quay and luck wasn't on my side when the owner(cum my friend)'s cat was banging loudly on the door. Feels like I was living in fear and my heart is beating like I sprint. Why oh why am I such an ailurophobia.

I must say, work wise, alhamdulillah I never run out of 'rezeki'. Even though at times I maybe broke but when it comes to my holiday I got a part time job and like they say, when you give more, you get more.

I got like so many dreams. I am so easily influenced when I saw a professional, I wanted to become that, and it kept on changing. But one thing I can't be is flight attendant since I'm a midget! So sad lor!

In my life right now I got so many future choices. I want to expand mummy's business to greater heights and also upgrade myself with skills and such. I wanted to have my own brand name in the future. I wanted to be a teacher/lecturer. I wanted this. I wanted that. But of course all the 'wants' I know I need to work hard for it. Its just so sad that mummy's legacy will end there when she retire. And sadly I am the only hope.

I target when I'm 28, I want to be a somebody! So lets see if this blog will be alive to keep track of that for me.

Labels: dreams, future, life

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<Sunday, August 15, 2010>

As cliche' as it may sounds, life ain't a bed of roses and we all know that. Recently I had no appetite for anything and didn't even finished my meals. Its my first time breaking fast with just a piece of bread and scrambled eggs to last till the next night. I don't even crave for anything else.

Earlier on, break fast at Arnolds' and its the first time that I didn't finished my meal. I don't know if there is something wrong with me or maybe its PMS? But I not yet menses ley..

I just hate it when we argued. I know, arguements are inevitable in couples but sometimes there are times you just want to give up.

Whatever it is, I still love you baby and will always do.

Labels: frusts, life

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<Monday, August 09, 2010>

So yesterday we had a mini birthday celebration for the brother. Yes, his birthday falls on National Day. How cool is that huh! Anyway, happy 24th brrro! Still single and available!

Celebrated at Sis' house. Tempted to post her abode pictures but since she request that she doesn't want her house to be 'publicised' because she does not want people to imitate her style. LOL.

Labels: birthday, celebrations

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<Saturday, August 07, 2010>

Don't you guys just hate it when this person was nasty to you all along, shirked his responsibilities all his and your life and when suddenly you make that one major decision and he begans to regret? Trying to get into your good books being nice and all.

Shit happens. And I am in that situation.

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