live. love. laugh

<Wednesday, December 30, 2009>

I guess I am not celebrating the countdown with baby, as he had to report for night surveillance on the new year itself. I am not a fan of being under smelly armpits, sweaty bodies and dangling irritating long hair thus I am not going to those crowded popular areas with my girls. So while people get wasted, losing voices or exchanging body sweats, I think I'll be changing channels in search for the best show or simply chat with whoever's free on MSN or just SLEEP.

Anyway, had lunch treated by the girl yesterday at Sakura, then to JP in search for my shoes again but still no stock and did some mini shopping of which I spend hundreds! Arghh! Followed by Haji Lane for sheesha session with Bella, Lilly and Ida. The rest couldn't make it to some WHATEVER reasons.

And ouh, I finally purchased a specs!

In 2 days it'll be the new year. 1 year ago somewhere around this time I am in Cameron Highland plucking strawberries with the love ones. And also taking romantic pictures with baby! Hehehe!

Romantic indeed.

Labels: food, friends day out, shisha

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<Sunday, December 27, 2009>

For the very first time in our relationship, we went to town by PUBLIC! Yes, we took the train and bus and even walked from one end to another. I am impressed with baby as he used to complain about walking every now and then. LOL. Well, I wouldn't want us to argue because of the rain(we just did, last week!) hence the change of decision.

We went to Taka to use the vouchers Mummy gave, walked to Paragon in search for my school shoes but to no avail.

. And I was hungarrrrry so proceed to Ojolali's Lucky Plaza for my favourite Grilled Pomfret. Then thought of going to Orchard Central and we actually thought we are in Orchard Central when we are in 313! So dumbo of us.

Walked(yes we walked!!) to PS for the movies, walked aroud while wasting the time and shopped at M(phosis. And then sit around till the movie start. And yes, Alvin & Chipmunks are so cute!!!! A pity I didn't catch the first one though. Will do very soon.

And ouh, did I mentioned that I tried the contacts for the very first time in my life too? I tried for 45 freaking minutes per eye ok! I even youtube on how to wear contacts. I admit I'm a sucker for contacts. Gave up, tried again for the last 15 mins and viola! And the best thing is I take a few mins only for the next eye.

So overall I really enjoy the day spend with my love one. Next is the New Year countdown weekend!

Labels: date, shopping

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<Thursday, December 24, 2009>

This holiday is really a good time for me to rejuvenate, relax and just be plain lazy. Although it can be a bore at times, I quite enjoy sleeping in the wee hours and waking up real late. Afterall, once I am back to the working world, theres not gonna be anymore holidays!! So better enjoy the perks of being a student.

Anyway, I am really amazed at how time passes. Its like less in a week and then its 2010. And ouh, side track a bit, I didn't score that well for my overall GPA. Next year onwards, I really need to mugged like crazy to ensure I score a place in poly, hopefully.

Ok back to what I am discussing. Ermm well, let me see what did I achieve for the past year?

- Celebrate new year with baby overseas.
- Back to school, yeah at the age of like what? 20? LOL.
- Engaged!!!!!
- Purchased the most expensive thing in Singapore. HDB. (Although I am just an occupier, not
21 yet, remember? Hahaha!)
- Continue my class 3 license after a year of hanging. Hehehe.
- Score well in class tests, exams, GPA.
- Hitting the BIG TWO OH.

Maybe that's it for now. I don't kind of remember the minor stuffs. Lol. And I think I did not make any resolutions this year. And to think I achieved so much and I am grateful and elated. Usually when you make plans it just didn't happen and then things happen unexpectedly when you're planless.

So for 2010, not going to do up any resolutions. Just going to work hard for the future and score good results, and I am 2-1 next year! So fast. Gonna enjoy being 21 and hopes there will be vacations with the love one.

Enjoy the weekend and Merry Christmas! Ho ho ho!

P/S: I hear people cheering to Christmas songs in my neighbourhood!

Labels: past, plans

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<Wednesday, December 23, 2009>

Ever since shit happens a few weeks ago, I began to ponder on certain aspects of life. Marriage, the ultimatum, is one of them.

Rotting at home during the holidays has affected my thinking and decision. I do not understand why men do not have a desire for commitment but instead, lust while women seek companionship and security.

Now, I am not saying my man has no intention of marrying me. Its just that I can't see the interest or the enthusiasm in him for the wedding, or make an effort to hasten the wedding. Afterall, its been me who has been fighting to get the early date for engagement and wedding. And we being engaged now, its all thanks to me and him partially.

I dare say now a few years ago I am just an immature bitch who just wants her way. Her way of everything, the engagement, the wedding, even rushing him to all this major decisions. I am so stubborn and ego that leads to people thinking I am still very young and naive to settle down and are not matured enough to make big decisions.

And now that I am old enough to think for my future, I realise I do not want all this anymore. I just want happiness and to focus on my studies and make good grades to proceed to poly. The reason why I refuse to budge from 2012 wedding because I do not want to give in to his side anymore for they're the one who always defer and defer and defer. Its time I have my say, its time they give in because its my wedding, my future. I am a selfish bitch when it concerns my future and happiness. That I thought too, will make me happy. But seeing baby too carefree and does not seem to care when we're getting married, really makes me sit down and think.

Do I want this wedding? Am I marrying the right man? Will I have regrets in the future?

So I narrow down to a few choices that I made. One of them is that I do not care when the wedding will be. Next will be pursuing my studies to a higher level and wait till I am old enough to get married. And the rest will be classified.

And I decided something that will make me uncomfortable and needs to get used to. I do not want the wedding for now. Yes, I will still be walking down the aisle with my man, but not now for sure. Everything that happens has a reason. And everything that happened already make me consider about everything.

For now, just live the moment and enjoy to the fullest. A pity I took 2 years and a half to realise all this shit. His family must be so happy that I have already grown up.

Unbelievable that all this is coming from me. LOL.

Labels: marriage, woes

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<Monday, December 21, 2009>

A movie date plus a dinner treat from baby before he left for his night surveillance. Our time was limited as we had to rush in order for him not to be late for his duty but in fact, the date end quite early and we head to hang around my humble abode.

Surprisingly, things between us are still shaky to me. He really needs to undergo anger management course while me, ego course(if there is ever is one). He had to spoil the day with cursing and swears because of the rain. And all that will sparks the arguement and fights. And he blame me for not getting the car. PFFT!

You see, I would love to get a car, a non-red plate one but I figure out our finances had to be stable and him having a really, really, good pay raise would then I allow him to buy a car. Man being man, still ~~wants~~ needs his machine. Even though he wear the pants, I still call the shots in term of finances.

. Nevermind baby, give us 6 or more months then we get your Lancer or Civic or whatever you want, ok? As cliche' as it may sounds, patience is a virtue. Lol.

Whats more with the purchase of the house, me still schooling, and us getting married in I-do-not-know-when, I believe we have to set aside some savings for rainy days.

Speaking of marriage, I am no longer interested in planning or recce-ing or searching or whatever-ing. I kept all the wedding magazines aside because I am pissed and petty like that. Imagine, the dreams and plans you have planned and suddenly its not going to happen will make you give up for a while. Yes I have been whining and complaning that I keep wanting to get married and stuffs, but when shit happens, you never know. I will leave it to ~~him~~ fate on what will happen in the future. However, I will still dream of my Cinderella wedding gown. Hahahha!

Meanwhile, the holidays are making me bored and fat at home. I feel like going out to work but then I am so fatass lazy to even step out of the house.

. A fatass bitch, I am.

Oh yeah, can I a baby? I want a baby! I am pretty sure we'll make chubby fatty cutey babies. We have even settled for their names! Lets see in years to come! Wakakakka!

Labels: date, food, wedding plans

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<Saturday, December 19, 2009>

Today is the first time of my life that I get to swipe a card. Call me fanatic or what, but the feeling feels so surreal and I am very excited. Of course, the feeling will only last for a while I get used to it. Hehe.

I really, really hope that we do not exceed our budget in anything or everything we spend. I really do not want to end up in loans or owes or whatever its called as I know it will only make our lives much tougher. I mean, who wants right?

Anyway, the pictures are from the tea party my previous lecturer invited. Afterwards, proceed to CP for a movie date with the girl for 'Princess and the Frog'! Lame! I know but it kind of reminisce the childhood memories but whatever it is, my favourite will always be Cinderella. LOL.

And I miss my fattybaby so much. Its been a week since we last met and with all the shits happening, makes us miss each other even more. I know I am holding on strong for this, I bet I will!

Alright now baby is having his supper at Al Ameen while I am here typing this daft entry. Macam mana tak gemok lagi. Pfft. Goodnight!

Labels: food, friends day out, movie treat

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<Sunday, December 13, 2009>

First and foremost, a BIG congratulations to my girl and her husband for tying the knot(sounds so wrong but I don't care) yesterday.

Woke up quite late, so rush there half an hour before it ends. After her event, we proceed to Hume Avenue for the ward party which Ida keeps pestering me to follow her, so I went.

Had a blasting good time with the good food plus the good company!

And it sure filled my ~~tummy~~ day. Went back home with a very very oily face plus foot cramp!

And I shall declare myself fat mama yo!

Labels: food, friends day out

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