live. love. laugh

<Monday, August 31, 2009>

I am having insecurities about this relationship. Sure, many will say why rush into marriage when one is not prepared. However I think that feelings like this are inevitable prior to marriage right?

No, we are not arguing and are back on track. We are immune to the verbal abuse thrown at each other till we're loss at words on the next arguments.

Pre-wedding jitters maybe? Ahaks, its still a long way to go before we walk down the aisle together. I have got 1 year to recce which bridal to choose since I am so and very fussy. I mean, its our big day so at least we must be very careful.

Its amazing how our minds thinks differently and we differ on EVERYTHING yet we still could hold on to each other till now.

I have got a few lists in my mind now which are either Chantique Bridal or Chinta Weddings but bombom wants Isabella or FM but they are wayyyyy too expensive. I rather spend the extra on honeymoon.

Can I just get married like that?

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<Friday, August 28, 2009>

I LOVE MY HAIR! SO KEMAROK GITU!!!! Now don't have already. Don't know how to do mahh. :(.

TRY SENYUM NMPK GIGI. EEEEYERRRR TK LAWA NYEE!! :p.

SAYANGS2 KU.

PALING TUA DAN PALING PENDEK.

Good news and bad news.

Bad news is me and bombom are fighting silently(does that even makes sense?) and currently are not layaning each other cause we are ego like that.

Good news are..... I passed my final evaluation and sorry eh, this time not wrong booking! Kekekekeke! And I passed my Behavioural Sci test 2 again, and unexpectedly, came in 2nd with 43/50. :).

Life has been great for me, but not so cause exams approaching already. Missing bombom dearly. And then will be the holidays!

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<Thursday, August 27, 2009>

I nak mengadu nasib ni.

I very fed up already, and laughing to myself as I walk to my way home from BBDC. There I was, like star karat come on time and sit in front in the middle some more in the practice room. Wondering why I am only left with 4 booklets, I re-log in again. And again, its still 4 booklets left. I thought its a technical error when they prompt Basic Theory Practice. Tried again still the same.

And thats when I realised, I BOOK FOR BASIC THEORY PRACTICE AND BASIC EVALUATION WHEN I SHOULD BOOK FOR FINAL THEORY PRACTICE AND FINAL EVALUATION!!!!! ARGHHHH!!! SELENGENYE AKU NI!!! TAKBLEH ANGKAT AR MACAM NAK KETOK JE NI KEPALA. !!!!!@##@$#$@!!!!

And so, I left there hastily and went to print my booking statement and there it states, BTP & BTE. PFFT!!! Tak puas hati still ask the CSO there whether can change or do something but cannot. Waste money and time!!!

Why am I so selenge man?!!!

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<Wednesday, August 26, 2009>

Just right after I break fast, I went to shower and realise that I had menses. Urgh! Info mcm tak perlu sey! Kekekeke!

Anyway, like I predicted, stress really came out in the test. STRESS aku dibuatnya. Unfortunately for me, I had problems remembering the answers so there goes my Top 3 lah kan. And ouh, I am happy also that I scored 41/50 for CN. Bukan bangga k, excited sngt je!

Got a babysitting offer this weekend, sadly had to reject it since the husband will be in the house and I have to look out for him while taking care of the baby. So dah jadi tunang orang kan, forget about it sudah.

So I am on MC from fasting babyy!!!

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<Monday, August 24, 2009>

It was Monday blues alright. So many shits happen in just one day. Things not settled, irresponsible biatch, didn't bring CD but its not my fault and so on.

And to add that, PM presentation tomorrow, upcoming test on Wednesday, PBL presentation on Thursday. Wahh so many!! Buey tahan ley!!

Alhamdulillah, I have fasted for the past 3 days with the intention to slim lah kan, but inevitable cause during break fast time alot of food than normal days, so actually not my fault either. Kekekeke!

This year is a special year for me cause we celebrate as tunang mcm so excited gitu, but it makes no difference also lar since he will be busy working and reservisting(???) so no jalan raya together gather. Jalan raya dengan kawan lagi best dapat collections! Muahahahahha!

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<Friday, August 21, 2009>

Selamat menyambut bulan ramadan kepada semua umat2 Islam!!

Off to remove the nail polish before its late already. 'scuba

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<Thursday, August 20, 2009>

I am so worn out, tired and lethargic sey. Maybe its because I have been going back in the evening and then proceed to BBDC for lessons cause my FTT is on 5th next month. Looking at the way the lessons looks and sounds like, it sounds so tedious. :(.

Anyway, I am so happy that I got top 3 for the class test. I didn't expect it though I know I still need to do better. It doesn't mean that I'll be the top 3 everytime right?

And, my mum was in the FAJAR RAMADAN show! Kekek sey mak aku ni. Hahahhaa.

Oklah tired already. And I miss fattybombom lar.

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<Sunday, August 16, 2009>

Yesterday was a blast! Spend the day at Sentosa followed by a kenduri at his nenek's house. Before that, early in the morning went to BBDC for my BTT and I passed!!! Weee!! My retest for the phase test also pass! I like! Now must concentrate for FTT liao.

Anyway, yesterday go Sentosa but never swim because I don't want my bag to be heavy with wet clothes since I have to go kenduri. So sit there like mak budak jaga beg gitu and wait till about 4 plus then chao. Then they make use of my camera to take pictures. Hmph! Sorry eh Bella, I combine all the pics lar. Hee. Add me at MSN k.

Then today meet fattybombom and head to JB to have our spicy chicken then to IMM to buy something then go back home cause the fattyman want to watch Armageddon at 6.30 but padahal its besok!!! Arghhhhhhh!!! Today he is such an ass. Pfft! Forever pissing me off. HMPH!! Biasalah sape tak kena WANSWINE[(a name I create only) then member tak puas hati pon nak sebok2 SHASWINE], mesti gadoh nye. Wakakakaka!

And dah lama blog ni tak dihiasi gambar fattybombom. I miss you!

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<Monday, August 10, 2009>

Like every year, National Day was special to us because its my brother's birthday too. And I rushed home to celebrate his 23rd birthday with the rest for a small gathering.

Happy 44th birthday to Singapore and 23rd birthday to my brother!

Bought him some shirt from G2000 and perfume to complete the set.

And ouh, I have the habit of combining all the pictures together cause each individual picture is an MB size and I can't afford to wait that long just to upload one picture. :).

And before the celebrations, followed baby to his side for a wedding. And went on a mini shopping in search for the brother's gift.

Our weekend was wonderfully and splendidly spent. Chances like this won't come often since he will be busy working already. And he even have to work today so the weekend is something for us to spend quality time together with the love ones too.

This week will be a vital week for me as it will be my BTT(donno how many times oready), class test and retest for the phase test. I failed, remember? I haven't been mugging and I know I should but I think I can't be bothered anymore with test and exams.

People said when one is engaged or married during school times, she can't concentrate and stuffs. But to me, its not because that I am engaged that I lose touch in studies. Maybe I need to rejuvenate myself as it has been a tough week for me.

And ouh, engagement life has been wonderful although to me it seems to have no differences. Arguments and fights is inevitable, but what makes me sticks to this man is he makes me happy and laugh all day all night all long. Kekekeke! And what makes him stick to me eh? *wondering*

I am not a good fiancee, cha' know? Kekekeke!

By the way, with regards about the Punggol Residence, I don't even wish to talk about it. There are like only 614 units, and those applying are like 2134++!!! So we have to find another house lor. So sad like that.

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<Friday, August 07, 2009>

There was this friend(let's named her K), who is deprived of love and attention from her family. Everytime, without fail she was treated unfairly by her family especially her parents. She felt like running away from home, and thought there is nothing in life in store for her.

She is not the typical malay girl. She respects and loves her family all the same. She doesn't raise her voice or let her unhappiness known to her family. Because she doesn't have the heart to and simply think its rude.

And because of that, she would break down in tears, suffer in agony in silence.

And because of that too, she would turn to unhealthy sites and make friends with strangers, meeting them and I am really glad she does not offer herself to any guys. Accept random guys readily, yes but not to offer her body. Seeking from love outside, when she know that true love does not exist with her doing like that.

For that, we did our part by advising her against doing all that and slowly she changed.

So tell me, how do we as a friend can do to help her? We can't possibly ask her to be rude to her family.

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<Wednesday, August 05, 2009>

Its been long since I do this kind of thing, say back when I was 14-16 during OBS, school camps and so on. I love adventure, you know. smileys

And finally after 5 years I get to do this thing again! Wooohoo! It was a sweaty and hot day and I feel so yucky all over. And please pardon the fat thighs. I absolutely know that I have to work that thing out. Muahahah!

Earlier today we(fattyb and me lor) had an argument. And in the midst of the argument I send him an SMS in which he replied which is soooooo uncalled for. Its like totally irrelevant.

"U yg buat I syg u. U jgn buat diri u yg I benci." - Ashakirin. A

And he reply cheekily;

"Bby, msg u yng last tu style ar".

scuba diving forum

Pfft. As much as he gets on my nerves repeatedly, sometimes this kind of things makes me like SMILE you know. Maybe I am weird lar like that.

I really can't wait for this weekend as I will go dating with fattyb like after for so long gitu!

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<Monday, August 03, 2009>

We just made a big decision yesternight together as a fiance/ee, which is...... WE APPLIED FOR THE PUNGGOL RESIDENCE BTO! (I think this is the most serious decision I ever made beside deciding to marry the fiance forum smileys

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Oh my oh my! I can't believe that we just applied it. Hopefully we'll get selected as baby very much wants that area since its near the interchange and whatsoever. And it will be ready by 2013. So long sey. But we reckon that by early 2012 it will be ready and furnished. I so can't wait to move to our new house once we're married! I know its still far away and its not even confirm that we'll get it but who cares! I am already imagining on how to renovate and stuffs. Angan-angan tinggi sey! Takbleh angz!

Hahahaha! scuba diving

But one thing for sure is that, it will be really far from my family. From the west side straight to the east side. We missed the BTOs in the west, hence the decision made to apply at Punggol.

Anyone residing at Punggol or decided to move there? Who knows we can be neighbours!

Side track a bit, I didn't do well for my phase test. The bloody teacher just had to failed me over a silly mistake I did. Argh!!!!!

Note to self; Behavioural Test this Wednesday.

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<Sunday, August 02, 2009>

And yeah, the party is Anabelle's 18th. Its a tradition for every Pinoy to celebrate their 18th at a hotel or something, to mark their 'legal' age. And so the whole class was invited. I dressed modestly(by modest, I mean cover here cover there, :p) since fattyman is not with me.

Waited for mamagemz at J.E when I terserempak Yunira, long time never see her sey.

After the event, thought of meeting fattyman but he is still working so mamagemz's dad fetched and send me home. It was 8.30pm on a Saturday night and I went back home.

Plan to wait for fattyman at home, and happy when he decided to meet me but then suddenly he had to go back to office. Haiz. So sad lor. Like kekurangan perhatian like that. war smileys

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